Chords get struck

Tonight I heard a song that I really felt.

Not a happy feeling, I suppose.

But cords were definitely struck.

She sings with such sorrow and has the power to

squeeze my little heart with her words.

I'm sure every song has it's own meaning to the ears that listen.

For me, this song takes me back to my past.

A relationship that continued to exist even though it had really ended for both of us.

Feeling safe yet unhappy in her arms.

Not wanting to inflict hurt.

Afraid of moving on.

Knowing that our love was slowing morphing into an unknown hate.

Yet the moments of happiness feel like enough to stay together.

It hurts less than ending.
 But it's hard to forget how messed up our relationship became in the end.

Wendy.

I'll always wish she was here

and I will forever wonder if we could have been friends by now.

 I'll never stop mourning her and the life she had waiting.

 I imagine her with the girlfriend she craved and deserved.

The life she should have lived.

Sometimes the past is difficult to visit.

Daughter - Still

Infatuation of the week #7

The oh so little,

Ellen Page

Petite and just the right amount of tomboyish.

Infatuated.

I'm not one for many words today so here are some lovely shots.

Yeah you do.

This Canadian lady doesn't mind making fun of herself either.

She is also super sweet and funny, making her ma's fav song
into a dodgy home movie film clip.
Featuring the hilarious Alia Shawkat from Arrested Developement
and as seen in the previous clip, Sean Tillman.

Happy weekend all

♥

Hello there scrambled brain

Ever have those days where you just can't sort out your thoughts?

Well, I'm having one of those horrible days today.

I'm rotating onto graveyard shift tonight and I should be asleep.

I'm not and doubt I will.

My head has a billion things running through it.

So my plan is to write them down.

Maybe then, my body will let my eyes stay shut.

Things I'm feeling today. 

-Stressed over a few issues at work

-Fat, bloated and generally unattractive

-Overwhelmed with all the packing to do and the fact that both 

Candice and I are excellent procrastinators

-Wanting to set some goals

-Worried about my health

-Wanting to cut out the small amounts of fish and chicken I've been eating and

focus even more on vegetables and grains

-Frightened that I'm not ready for the start of university

-Daunted by how many changes this year is bringing

-Wanting to just call in sick to work but knowing my conscience won't allow me

-Frustrated

-Emotional

-Nervous

-Tired

 

Historically I don't do very well with change, even when it's things I want.

I know it doesn't make sense.

I've never been one of those people that can brainwash themselves into feeling better.

But I'm going to try with a few of those positive affirmation quotes.

Desperate times, people.

♥