Chords get struck

Tonight I heard a song that I really felt.

Not a happy feeling, I suppose.

But cords were definitely struck.

She sings with such sorrow and has the power to

squeeze my little heart with her words.

I'm sure every song has it's own meaning to the ears that listen.

For me, this song takes me back to my past.

A relationship that continued to exist even though it had really ended for both of us.

Feeling safe yet unhappy in her arms.

Not wanting to inflict hurt.

Afraid of moving on.

Knowing that our love was slowing morphing into an unknown hate.

Yet the moments of happiness feel like enough to stay together.

It hurts less than ending.
 But it's hard to forget how messed up our relationship became in the end.

Wendy.

I'll always wish she was here

and I will forever wonder if we could have been friends by now.

 I'll never stop mourning her and the life she had waiting.

 I imagine her with the girlfriend she craved and deserved.

The life she should have lived.

Sometimes the past is difficult to visit.

Daughter - Still